Note: My poem is a sestina. They're tricky little buggers to write!
Naked, she reads his bruised skin like Braille, leaving
nothing to chance. A baby bird in her hand, fallen.
Knowing there is nothing to do but stay. Lightly
he left her without knowing it was so. Still, the sun rose.
Winter thawed, and the bluebirds flew back to nest. Even
the postman returned each week with another undeliverable letter.
Returned to sender, letter upon letter--
rejected more times than she can remember. He leaves
unopened secrets between them. We’re even
now, she writes, tucked inside quilted flowers, chewed pencil falling
unnoticed, still swollen with love. Nothing but a fat pink rose
drooping in the ochre light.
She leans down and wraps her mouth lightly
around the lead. The deep folds of night sky let her
know what she cannot, unbidden strength rising
through the ether of the attic’s purple eaves.
No words remain unwritten. And though stars fall
and turn their back on her, she still calls it even.
The wind sighs. Clouds billow, and shadows appear (even
regret makes her lucid). She faces the window, rising. Light
graying with dawn, her blue eyes brighten. The fresh air fells
all wounds, invisible and not. Healed, she traces a letter
with her fingertip (slips the others between her legs), left
hand making a trail with his name. Her hips still rise
Without permission. Dry skin rubs wet skin, a rising
cry from inside her hits the air sharp and sad. Even
coming alone he empties her body of desire. Leaves
her mouth aflame (takes a drag) a glowing ash of light.
Still, it is over (she prays for the last time). He’ll let her
go, (scattering seed, ash). How quickly darkness falls.
The hour is late. All that remains is the rise and fall
of breath. She comes to and discovers even the risen
still cleave to the sheets in despair. Another letter
burns to ash, hidden secrets gathering power. Even
if this is all there is, she knows it’s enough--lightly
holding the smoldering reliquary, only smoke and cinders left
To burn without a flame (embers falling, lovers leaving)
Still she rises with thumb-shut eyes as early shafts of light
Drop upon her like blessings (or cherished letters, opened even!).
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