poetry and prose posts by amylia grace

7.2.08

Reflection & WW Update

Weight Watchers Update:
Pounds lost this week (4th): 1.2 lbs.
Total Weight Loss: 7 lbs.

Gym Update:
Workouts this week: 3
Minutes on treadmill today: 60 (without stopping!)
Miles ran: 3.5 miles
Cals burned: 450 cals

I'm very proud of my workout today, even if the ramped up workouts aren't showing on the scale yet, I feel better and stronger, and yes, sore! But it's worth it. I feel great. And I didn't even have to take any insulin before dinner. I just worked out and it stayed steady, dropping to 134 mg/dl after my workout. So today is a good day and a day of reflection for me.
One of the side-effects of a disease like type 1 diabetes is reflection. I survive by being almost constantly alert--reflecting on what my body is telling me, trying to read myself, my body, others, my surroundings, what's in the air...

Diabetes has been a blessing in that it has brought me closer to myself--ignoring my own longings and those of my body could have devastating consequences, and while there definitely are times when I am not as acutely aware of things, I find that there is a higher consciousness that comes to me in part as a result of managing this disease for 19 years.

I sometimes wonder who the "I" is--that voice of knowing and wisdom inside, that part of myself that alerts me, wakes me, saves me time and time again from a fate that doesn't belong to me--that space and energy within me that seems both a part of me and yet something else entirely.


P.S. I couldn't stop watching this time lapse video of our winter storm. It was taken outside the Bradley Center, where the Milwaukee Bucks play.

8 comments:

George said...

Congrats on the loss!

The fact you point out about the blessing Diabetes can offer is very true. Even if it is a crappy way to learn to listen to our bodies, it is true that we become more in tune I believe.

Shannon said...

Congrats on the loss!!!

Exercise will most definitely catch up and make a big difference in your losses in the coming weeks.

Plus, you'll just be healthier no matter what!

Araby62 said...

Sometimes I think my own "I" is that little 12-year-old I used to be, still around to watch over the older me and keep watch on the thing that forever changed my life.

Way to go on the workouts. And what a cool video--man, you guys got clobbered!

Jeff said...

It's a "good" kind of sore, isn't it? Way to go, Amylia.

Cool video.

Jillian said...

You are a Weight Watchers Rock Star!!!

And still I have nothing profound to say, how sad. My skills are lacking...I'll come back as soon as I have something good to contribute to this.

Donna said...

Congratulations on your weight loss! And what a cool video! Hope you have a great weekend.

Naomi said...

Hooray! Congrats on the loss and on the stamina to stay on the treadmill! Lots of times you can feel it in your clothes before you even see it on the scale -- especially if you are picking up on the exercise. Woo hoo!

Scott K. Johnson said...

Way to go on the WW.

I think the very real skill you have is being able to actually recognize things in the reflection.

To see what is there, rather than to just look through it, as I so often do.

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