I like to think of it as both these things--a symbol of nature, God's love and a crossroads. As I am, indeed, in need of reminders of God's love precisely because I am at such a crossroads in my life right now. Coincidentally, today starts the new 12th week of d365 and the focus is on "Diabetes and Change."2008 finds me in a time of great change in my life, having just returned home from a year teaching and living abroad in Taipei, Taiwan. I had to leave my beloved behind (for now). It also brings me back to my hometown of Milwaukee, which I haven't lived in for many years. I have no job lined up. I have very limited funds. I just found out I can't have my cat at the place I was going to live beginning next week, which I cannot accept. I need a new plan. Of course, even the crazy Wisconsin weather is changing. Despite the bitter cold temperatures of late, we're expecting 50's today and tomorrow. More change. Tomorrow is my first appointment at the Endocrinology Center. I had two doctor appointments on Friday. More to come. I have to find all new doctors. I need GP, a dermatologist, a gynecologist, a podiatrist, a dentist, an opthamologist, and whomever else I'm forgetting.
I have been through more changes in 2007 than most people I know go through in a decade. The beginning of 2008 has been a bumpy ride thus far starting off with me saying goodbye to the man that I love and watching him fly thousands of miles away across oceans and continents. I then promptly caught a cold which morphed into a wicked sinus infection, causing my bloodsugars to be quite elevated as my body fights off the infection. Change is not always good for my diabetes control, as stress definitely raises my bloodsugar much of the time. My adrenaline starts pumpin' once I start worrying or fretting, and despite starting in normal glucose range, I've been as high as 387 lately after stressful situations. I'm making positive changes for 2008, and despite everything, I have such hope and joy for this new year. It's going to be a good one, and a monumental one in my life. I can feel it!
Oh, and of course, there is no cure for diabetes.
Yet...
But I hope that will change.
5 comments:
One day at a time, friend.
Colleen is so right! :)
sending positive thoughts your way! i believe 2008 will be good, too. i hope you come up with a good plan for you and your cat.
we have been on the same wave length.
I agree - one day at a time. Especially with all the change you've had lately.
I often think that change is good. But, change of any kind (whether good or bad, or indifferent) is still change. And that is stressful.
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